- It was the end of the session so we were fighting while starting at certain positions
- In my third fight I went against this guy who does not know how to relax. He moves so fast and he makes me move so fast like myself of my body parts like my arm and at some point at the start of the The spar I started to get scared that he would seriously injure me especially my arm cuz he’s got a very aggressive hold on it and when that happened I felt the adrenaline and the boost of energy
- but also more important I was no longer stopped by this mental barrier that continuously tells me that I’m unable to win and The other person is stronger than me and better than me so they will beat me
- So I basically got a hold of him and got him on the floor.
- I guess what that taught me is that for me to actually care about winning winning? There must be something at stake
- For these sparring matches, It’s weird, you have to find this perfect balance of not putting your 100% effort but also still being a fighter, still wanting to not be put into a submission and instead be the one who does