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I somehow become this kind of person: How it feels to live a purposeless life
- The weaker I feel, The weaker my purpose is and the weaker my purpose is the stronger my urges to do dopamine inducing activities like Pornography becomes
- This is why it’s very essential to take more care of yourself in these times. And spend more time just reminding yourself about your purpose and why you do the things you do
- The timing is very important: You need to do these things before the urge becomes so strong that it controls you
- if you’re at the point where you actually really considering doing that thing, That’s when I believe you’ve lost because even if you’re able to stop yourself now. You allowed yourself to reach that thought process so there’s nothing stopping Your mind from doing it again
- really cool analogy for this is stocks and their support and resistance levels
- This is why it’s important to take care of yourself and remind yourself of your Purpose before the urges have already beaten you
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I lose my ambition that usually drives me to work long hours and get things done
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instead, I prioritize feeling good while neglecting the things that I have to do
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I’ve been allowing myself to Sleep more and have have more showers so I can feel better
- But that’s not how it was in the first 2 days I was sick. I instead just tried working, forced myself to work and ended up doing nothing despite being in my laptop for around 12 hours that day