- I am scared of something. I have a few potential reasons:
- I don’t wanna see if they are listening or not
- probably tied to my childhood where people didn’t give me the chance to speak out. People would not listen to me and I didn’t like that feeling.
- I don’t wanna see them act confused, because that means that I am not explaining something very well (drop in confidence) which will put me in a situation where I’ll have to explain myself better
- I just feel like I won’t be able to both watch them and think deeply about what I’m saying. It’s hard for me to multitask speaking and watching someone’s body language
- I gotta start somewhere though
- it’s the same idea when I’m Presenting to an audience as well
- The reason I’m talking about this is because I believe it’s something that’s very important to do. That’s how you get feedback from what you’re saying. By me not looking up, I’m basically telling myself and the other person that “I do not care about your thoughts,” And I’m just yapping for the sake of yapping and not for the sake of them understanding
- while that isn’t true in most cases for me, this is how others would see it