The Desire to Connect
The eye-opening thing is that throughout my time at Mac Hall, while looking for people and holding up the poster to see how people use ChatGPT, I noticed something about myself. I always have this urgeāthis deep needāto bond with someone. I really want that. Every time I interact with someone, especially Women, I feel this strong desire to find a connection. Itās crazy.
This desire haunts me sometimes
Always Searching
Itās there 24/7, constantly in the back of my mind. Iām always on the lookout for a woman. I feel like a part of everything I do, everywhere I go, is driven by thatāthis need to find someone, to find āmy one.ā
Iām not sure if everyone feels this way. It doesnāt seem normal or natural to me. It feels like too muchājust a little too much. But maybe itās not.
The Stimulation of Social Interaction: Walking around campus is so stimulating
Finding Purpose
Iāve been trying to channel this into something productive, like making YouTube videos. But I know I havenāt been putting my full effort into them. Still, Iām always on the lookout.