The Desire to Connect

The eye-opening thing is that throughout my time at Mac Hall, while looking for people and holding up the poster to see how people use ChatGPT, I noticed something about myself. I always have this urgeā€”this deep needā€”to bond with someone. I really want that. Every time I interact with someone, especially Women, I feel this strong desire to find a connection. Itā€™s crazy.

This desire haunts me sometimes

Always Searching

Itā€™s there 24/7, constantly in the back of my mind. Iā€™m always on the lookout for a woman. I feel like a part of everything I do, everywhere I go, is driven by thatā€”this need to find someone, to find ā€œmy one.ā€

Iā€™m not sure if everyone feels this way. It doesnā€™t seem normal or natural to me. It feels like too muchā€”just a little too much. But maybe itā€™s not.

The Stimulation of Social Interaction: Walking around campus is so stimulating

Finding Purpose

Iā€™ve been trying to channel this into something productive, like making YouTube videos. But I know I havenā€™t been putting my full effort into them. Still, Iā€™m always on the lookout.