The Joy of Running Alone
I love running when everyone isn’t. It gives me this feeling that I’m doing something while everyone else is not, and that makes me feel good, by myself. It reminds me of who I am. I think I really need that reminder today and yesterday because I feel very lost in several areas of my life. It’s crazy how I’m impacted by that so drastically. Just a few days ago, I was a man on a mission, and no one could stop me. Now, I feel so lost. I had a very strong direction regarding what I wanted to do and the future, and now I’m not very sure.
Purpose and Direction
This reminds me of something Simon Sinek said about purpose—it’s not something you find, work on, and then move on from. Purpose is something you live by every single day for the rest of your life. In some way, I’ve associated the Orbit app itself with purpose, and this is why I’m feeling this way right now. I don’t know what’s the future for Orbit, and that means I don’t know what my purpose is in the future. That’s why I feel lost. So, what’s the solution? Find a direction.
How can I find a direction? Good question. Talking to people, as I explained in my near-peer reflection video or recording, reflecting, and deep thinking about things like I am right now. Let’s just think, what can I do? When it comes to exploration, I have to let go of control. I can’t actually be free and explore freely if I’m trying to control it. That’s not how creativity and exploration work.
Control and Purpose
I’ve noticed I’m a control freak. I feel like I have to work towards Orbit and its future; otherwise, it means I’m not fulfilling my purpose. I have to relearn what purpose really is and what is really important right now for Orbit. It’s not about development or coding, but exploration.
Social Connections
Another huge problem I’m currently facing is finding friends, but I’m slowly getting better at it by putting myself in new environments. This makes me think of how maybe there isn’t really a need for a meetup app to find your crew. You just have to go where the crew isn’t, and from there, you get to meet them and talk. You have to go to that area in the first place and hope you find someone. It’s not a foolproof method, but this is how people have been doing it for the longest time. It will be very hard to change that habit until you can meet one-on-one with people and make friends from that. Very hard.