Dilemma between working alone or joining a group

Seeking Comfort in Company

In general, I have a tendency to lean on people when I’m in uncomfortable situations. It makes me wonder: why do I do that? Is it because I’m not confident in myself, because I don’t like being alone, or simply because I prefer having someone with me? I do prefer being with someone, but sometimes I have to do things alone.

It makes me question if I should’ve worked on “orbit” by myself in Trip to Santa Monica n LA. It’s challenging to accept, especially after sacrificing so much, not just money but time and other resources, to get something like an Arduino kit. I’m not satisfied with the outcome, and I should have trusted myself more. Orbit is something only I understand right now, and I’m alone in continuing it.

I sometimes need to fight the urge to be with someone and trust that what I’m doing, despite me doing it alone, it’s still the right thing.

It feels like a conflict of interest prevented others from picking me up. If I had to redo it, I would. This situation has even disrupted my work on my YouTube videos.

The Struggle with Solitude

Doing things alone isn’t fun; it makes things feel less meaningful. I tend to lean on social interactions. If there’s a social aspect, I find it easier to work on projects more consistently. However, the lack of companionship might make me stop working on Orbit, as I have no one to share it with. It’s disheartening when I’m ready to connect, like the time I missed my bus for an excuse to stay with someone who didn’t reciprocate (Trip to Santa Monica n LA)

The Need for Human Connection

I crave human connection so much that sometimes I’m willing to sacrifice things just to feel it. The (LAHacks application) hackathon was another instance where I decided to stay with someone, and that didn’t end well either. It’s frustrating to realize how much I long for bonding and deep connections. I think about whether these desires are rational, especially since I feel them so strongly. It’s not the place that matters, like LA; it’s about wanting to be with and connect with someone.

Prospective Change and Challenges

I’m considering the idea of improv in L.A., which would be interesting but also means meeting strangers and possibly never seeing them again. Is it worth it? The chances of meeting people again are low, but it’s something to consider for orbit too. Deciding whether or not to pursue activities often leaves me feeling lonely. I realize that preferring company might be why I’m hesitant about solo traveling (Why I enjoy traveling with someone else rather than alone). It’s puzzling that I’m not as proud of myself because I think I could have done better without external distractions, like in the DAIN situation.

1. Possible Video Ideas

1. Video Title: “Why Do We Seek Comfort in Companionship?”

   • Explore the psychological reasons behind our inclination to lean on others and how it affects personal projects.

2. Video Title: “The Solitude Struggle: Finding Meaning While Working Alone”

   • Discuss strategies to stay motivated and find fulfillment when working on projects solo.

3. Video Title: “The Need for Human Connection: A Deep Dive into Our Social Nature”

   • Analyze the importance of human relationships and how they influence our lives and work choices.

4. Video Title: “Facing Solitude: Overcoming Challenges in Solo Projects”

   • Share personal experiences and tips on how to invest in self-confidence and overcome loneliness in projects like “orbit.”

5. Video Title: “Improv in L.A. – Is it Worth the Risk and Challenge?”

   • Evaluate the pros and cons of stepping out of comfort zones to engage in new social experiences like improv.

2. Catchy X/Twitter Posts

1. “What’s behind our tendency to cling to others in uncomfortable situations? Explore the reasons in my latest video! HumanNature Companionship”

2. “Is working alone always less meaningful? Share your thoughts on finding fulfillment in solitude. SoloLiving DeepThoughts”

3. “Why do we crave human connection so deeply? The answer might surprise you. 👀 ConnectionMatters SocialNature”

4. “Considering improv in LA but hesitant about meeting strangers? Let’s talk about stepping out of comfort zones. 🎭 ImprovLife SocialGrowth”

5. “Reflecting on personal projects – sometimes, all it takes is trusting yourself amidst solitude. SelfDiscovery Orbit”

3. Questions for Self-Reflection

1. Why do I feel uncomfortable when I’m alone? Are there specific triggers or past experiences that contribute to this feeling?

2. What steps can I take to build my confidence when working on solo projects like “orbit”?

3. How can I create meaningful social interactions that don’t rely too heavily on others for motivation?

4. What can I learn from past experiences where leaning on others didn’t result in the desired outcome?

5. Is there a middle ground between enjoying social interactions and being productive in solitude? How can I balance the two?

6. In pursuing activities like improv, how can I embrace the uncertainty of meeting strangers while staying true to my goals?

7. What are the core reasons behind my hesitation to travel solo, and how can I address these hesitations?

Reflecting on these questions could lead the way to personal growth and provide insights for future decisions.