- especially in important video calls: Why do I not feel in control during important video calls
- my best guess is because:
- by the conversation being silent, that means there’s no reason we should be meeting (I would think to myself: “they might as well end the call now”)
- this is a consequence of me naturally being someone with an Introverted history and being I am a man of purpose
- in other words, in everything I put effort in, there must be a reason, deep motivation behind the thing I’m doing. And if there isn’t, what comes out wouldn’t be my best work.
- similar to my thought process in The more attractive she is the better I speak
- I really need to let go of the association between silence (especially extremely short periods) and meaninglessness
- I thought I was pretty good at it, but it turns out I’m only good at it with close friends or around people I’m not interested in having a conversation with